Weird day when even your mom is surprised you’re still a virgin.

So I wrote a paper about rape culture in America for my Sociology class and received a 96% on it!

So for my birthday on Monday I got Taylor Swift’s Red cd and The Strokes cd Comedown Machine from my boyfriend Chris. $25 and a bunch of chocolate chip cookies from my grandparents, $20 from my grandma and a card from my parents. From Saturday evening to Monday morning I was with my boyfriend, so I was with him until 5:30 am on my birthday (because my mom needed her car for work at 6:30), so it was nice being able to spend at least a little time with him that day (he lives almost an hour away from me btw). Overall, I had a good birthday :)

I’m really just a lonely depressed asocial weirdo who just wants to be accepted in one realm in my life.

Blogging while my boyfriend lays next to me. Nothing could be better. <3

So I’ve been talking to this guy, Chris, for about a month now, and last week we started dating. So I have a boyfriend.

If someone would’ve told me two weeks ago that I’d be wanting to date again, I would laugh so hard and not believe them… Nothing in my life ever goes as planned, but I like what’s happening. I deserve to be happy.

So I met someone who I’ve been texting since last week yesterday. He’s really nice, sweet, funny, cuddly, tall lol, respectful, ridiculously smart. And I think I might actually like him (if it turns out I truly have feelings for him he’ll be the first guy since my last boyfriend)… Uh oh…

Just went to my first college party hang out thing. I smell of alcohol and cigarettes but I finally feel cool in life. Maybe I can actually fit in with these people… lol who am I kidding. ~wishful thinking~

So today I washing my hands in the bathroom and this girl was too and she said to me “Hey, I like your sweater and purse” and I said back “Oh thanks! I really like your sweater too” and in my head I thought and your hair and your face… I’m so creepy…

The less sleep I get the easier it is for me to wake up in the morning like really how does that work.

So I have to make a montage of the Kuleshov Effect for my film class any ideas??

I am so fucking awkward I can’t believe I have any friends at all oh my god

I buy clothes to make myself feel better but I always just want more and I’ll never have enough and that void in my heart will never be filled.

I am genuinely terrified that whoever I end up losing my virginity to will leave me afterwards and tell me that the whole relationship was just a hoax Idk I’m so paranoid ugh I’ll just be single forever.