I went to my senior prom last night with my boyfriend Luke. It was amazing :)

I am never getting my hair professionally done again because it turned out really bad. But taking the pictures and eating dinner were fun. The dance was awesome and Luke and I danced almost the entire time. We had a lot of intense eye gazing <3 He slept over and we had an even more amazing time. We fell asleep in each other’s arms C: But my parents in the morning made him leave, even though they knew he was sleeping over and said they would leave us alone. Sorry guys, but if I wanted to ruin my life I would do what you did. Get pregnant in high school. No reason for them to make him leave. I’m an adult.

But besides this morning, I had a wonderful time. I have a perfect boyfriend. And I have never been happier in my life with someone else.

I get to see my boyfriend today :D He’s been sick all week and finally I get to come over. I’ll be making him soup and tea <3

It scares me how much I care about Luke. He is really sick right now and I just want to be with him so bad and I wouldn’t even care if I got sick, too. I just want to take care of him and kiss his forehead and tell him everything will be okay. I haven’t seen him in a few days and it kills me. The reason I am so scared is because ever since my first real breakup, I haven’t let any guy have my heart again. But with Luke, it’s different. I just don’t want to lose him. It’s probably normal to feel this way, but it just scares me because if we broke up, it would just make me really depressed and I can’t imagine my life without him. Idk, I’m trying to say how I feel on here to vent, but the thoughts are just dsjhuahdslajndlkadsa. I just want to be with him for a very long time. And the last time I felt this way, it ended really badly and left me heartbroken. I even thought about suicide (only really briefly, though). So of course I’m scared. Blegh.

Ugh why the fuck am I so hungry allll the time D:

It’s past midnight and I’m craving pizza and chicken.

brb while my mouth has a foodgasm

Idk if it’s just me, but whenever I press Enter when I type in a tag, it automatically reblogs the post and doesn’t even save the tag. So I have to carefully tag everything without pressing Enter. Does anyone know how to fix this? Please help me!? Please?

Yes, I am in a relationship. Feels weird to say. But he makes me happy. We spent Valentine’s Day together and he asked me then c:

Yesterday I went on the best date I’ve ever been on. It was amazing. His name is Luke and he’s just… amazing. I met him a few weeks ago but I had known about him before because we have a lot of mutual friends. But we hit it off really quickly. We went to see “The Vow” then afterwards ate dinner at Chili’s. We didn’t want to the night to end, so we ended up going to a park, but it was way too cold for us to handle, so we went back in my car (he doesn’t have his license yet) and we were contemplating what we should do, so he asked if I wanted to come over, of course I said yes! So we went to his house and watched TV. I feel so comfortable with him. I’ve never really felt this way about anyone, and it kinda scares me… because, you know, if it ends, it’ll devastate me. I’m trying not to think of that, I want to be positive. He told me it feels right being with me and he’s never really felt this way either. So it’s mutual. Gahhh, it makes me happy. We’re even spending Valentine’s Day together c:

Today was a pretty decent day. I didn’t have any real problems. In all my classes there are annoying people so that’s frustrating, but besides that, decent day. Until I was talking with my friend about this girl we don’t like. I told them she’s in my gym class and also said my ex (who’s best friends with that friend) is too and for some reason he thought it would be funny to tell me that when he was with my ex the night he broke up with me on facebook, it would’ve been funny to put “widow” instead of “single.” My ex put single on facebook without telling me. And Dylan gave him the idea to put widow. So they were having a good time that night when he did that and having a big laugh about it. That is something I would be much better off not knowing. All these horrible feelings of that time in my life came back. That was a year and a half ago. I don’t understand why he would bring THAT up -.-

Best:

1. Charlize Theron
2. Michelle Williams
3. Emma Stone
4. Shailene Woodley
5. Angelina Jolie
6. Kate Winslet
7. Lauren Miller
8. Jessica Alba
9. Rooney Mara
10. Evan Rachel Wood

Worst:

1. Piper Perabo
2. Madonna
3. Reese Witherspoon
4. Amanda Peet
5. Maya Rudolph
6. Natalie Portman
7. Julianna Margulies
8. Tilda Swinton
9. Kate Beckinsale
10. Nicole Richie

Okay, so in gym I was hit in the face with a basketball. All the people on my team or the team we were playing against didn’t even try to help me -.- They just stood there, and the girl who hit me said she was sorry, but it was half ass. She didn’t do it on purpose, but still. Went to the nurse, laid down a bit, saw a hot guy in the nurse’s office lol, and called home to get Aleve. I’m so glad I don’t have a broken nose!

Lunch I discussed my facebook status that these two guys kept debating on (status: Hate is far more of a choice than homosexuality will ever be.) and two of the people at my lunch table “liked” it and we were complaining about the two guys who kept commenting on it, basically about nonsense. I told them to go away but they still commented -.-

Then after school, I went to my mom’s college graduation! It was pretty boring because the head of the school or whatever gave this 20 minute speech about his life and blah blah blah and then each graduate gave thanks to whomever. But I’m SO proud of my mom! :’) She deserves it!

Fml. I’ve been doing nothing but sitting on my ass most of this break and this is what I get -.- Time to start running again! My goal is to be 110. 15 lbs to lose… I want to lose 5 in a month and the rest I’ll lose overtime until prom in May.

Originally, I was supposed to hang out with my friend Carlos for New Year’s. But then he found out he had to work. So I asked my friend Alyssa and she said she just wanted to stay home with her parents because she always does. Then today my friend Brandon invited me to a party and I was with my best friend Ana and she said she would go with me. But then she decided she didn’t want to go anymore. And I wasn’t gonna go alone to the party, because it’s all guys. I would feel weird being alone with a bunch of guys. So I’m not going anymore.

So I’m now stuck at home doing nothing for New Year’s. I’m gonna get drunk all alone and watch movies and blog and listen to music. Totally not what I wanted. But whatever.

I don’t have cable in my room (I only have about 10 channels) so I’m not able to watch FX otherwise I would have been watching American Horror Story all this time, because I really wanted to watch it. Then, last night on the computer I thought to myself “you know, you can just watch it online.” So I did and I watched 6 episodes last night and the other 6 today. Episode 6 if my favorite. Tate is so gorgeous but I don’t think I can ever swoon over him again after I found out he raped Violet’s mom. And I love Violet’s fashion sense. The last episode was INSANE! I can’t wait for the next season.

I haven’t showered in two days. I skipped showering last night because I was lazy. But now, I can’t even shower tonight. Why? NO FUCKING REASON. My grandma won’t let me shower right now even though the shower won’t clog up the pipes, it only happened to the one in the basement. And my dad and grandpa put the shower on to test it and nothing happened. So I can perfectly well go shower right now but my grandma is forbidding it. I’m sweaty, gross and dirty. I’m so pissed off. She gave me NO reason except that “I said so.” I love my grandma, but right now I can’t stand her. She said “you can shower tomorrow” even though now EVERYONE (7 people live here) in the house will have to shower in the morning because she won’t let anyone do it now. It makes no fucking sense. So now anyone who showers after the first two will have cold water. Awesome. >_<